Wow it's been a little while since I've written. I need to get back to it. I'm sure that I am going to have a lot more to share with you all now that we are SURPRISE!....expecting #4. What a blessing! We found out January 1, 2014. What a way to start the new year off! I have to be honest. I didn't take the news well at first. It was very selfish of me but I think I would be doing a disservice to my readers to not be honest. I also want to look back and read this when I am holding this precious baby in my arms and be so thankful that God gave me the blessing that I so did NOT deserve. Discussions were made a few months ago with hubby about #4 and it just never went anywhere. I was scared. God knew the deep down desires of my heart but my human mind and my lack of self esteem and the lack of believing in myself kept me from acting on those desires. Also the logical reasoning going through my head too as well as coming out of others' mouths. There was the comment that I have three healthy, smart, beautiful children. I should be thankful for them and move on. There's different stages of life. There's a little kiddo stage and then for my oldest there's a raising tweens/teen stage.
One other thing that held me off from acting on this desire is that two people very close to me had a miscarriage. My sister who has been battling with infertility and does not have any children as of yet had a miscarriage in September. Then in October one of my best of friends had a miscarriage. She has three children but that didn't lessen the pain any more than it was for my sister. My heart hurt and I truly mourned with them. I tried to help them through this horrific time in their lives. In the end I am so proud of them for moving on and being the Godly women that they are choosing to move forward with their lives. I pray daily for them to get the desire that they have for another precious baby.
My first appointment with the doctor is on January 30th. That's next Thursday and I am excited. My mom is coming over to go with me so the kids can go to my first appointment with me. I am 7 weeks today and have already battled tonsillitis and a double ear infection. The antibiotics are causing nausea. Please don't hate me for this but I don't usually have "morning sickness" with my pregnancies. I think my mood swings make up for it though. I sure have had my share of those this past week. I guess that's a good sign that baby is growing and thriving. Hopefully my kids won't end up hating me before the end of the first trimester.
So there that is. Happy New Year! Happy 2014 to us!